12 – 2 – 20 It’s funny how these words will/can potentially live on longer than the thoughts of their thinker creator, when often what gets written is far from profound or the thinkings that feel so to me. In the car and the shower I slip close to divine in the loose formings and …
I want to go back and delete everything I’ve ever written. Let’s just pretend that I’m just starting here, and that the work of the past never existed, let’s just pretend that you know me as I know myself now. Don’t think of me like the person I was then. Particularly in regards to politics. …
I asked my partner to assign me prompts to grease the wheels of my creativity. Her first assignment: how would you have improved the DNC to make it enjoyable? Alright, good one. Let’s get started, shall we. So, I don’t know how many of us watched the 2020 Democratic National Convention, the …
I don’t think, in these days of revolution, we understand the depths to which the roots of these trees grow. Cecelia Watson is right to call out David Foster Wallace and his structuralist defense of Standard Written(White) English. Joe Biden claims the mantle of the Democratic nomination vowing change while choked out in a …
I feel myself struggle with the writing. Like an other is inside of me, a ghostly shell around my heart, a collar around the neck of my dog against which I press and feel the tension of…of…of something there. Something. That something dressed up as discipline, ego, control, a psychodrama of reality brushing up against …
5/14 continued “When seeking the truth, better get the whole thing. Like a good fuck, it’s worse to get half than none at all” – The great task will not change when our intelligence finally transcends our organic bodies, we will still be tasked with conquering space. We will merely have found a more suitable …
5-7 Now I cannot stop thinking about the act of ego in writing, creating, communicating in any form in general. An explosion of the self taken out and realized, how easily does this fire get turned and used to ends of manipulation, when considering the reader it becomes manipulative by nature. Is it art …
05/14/20 I guess I was saving this piece for reputation’s sake, really to save face with my family so they’d think less less of me, and by family I mean the wider remit of important people in my life, not just blood. I never felt anything negative or wrong about the events, aside from the …
I realize that reading back on a lot of these essays of mine, a lot of my former teachers and professors would be ashamed at the quality of the work: the regular shoddiness of the structure, the lucy-goosey relationship with grammar and spelling, the disregard for ensured audience understanding, the list goes on. I’m certain …
4-26 We hope for a heavenly judge so our impact is measured, but we know we are only judged by ourselves. To measure a life’s impact, its reach wide and deep, what scope an impossibility for one eye to see, the asking for possession of all our lonely moments, the thought they’re not our own. …